I have so many stories to tell you. So many thoughts are pinned up inside me today, and it’s just not the right time to share them. Patience and blogging, they don’t mesh well. But I’ve finally come to that place where I can dial my best friend and not tell her that thing I’m dying to…the real reason I called. Timing, God is outside of it and even He, especially He, practices the importance of it.
I can tell you that I’m excited about this next move in my life. I’m excited about this beautiful, largely godless, poverty ridden state that I have the absolute pleasure of living in. I’m excited to get out in it and be a part of it. I’m grateful for the third trailer that I will have lived in in as many years. I’m grateful for humility, even when it comes through complete and utter humiliation. I’m grateful that I know God speaks, and I’m grateful for what He’s bent down and told me about this season. I’m grateful for my book, a book I absolutely believe He gave me. I’m grateful for my husband. He gave me a story he didn’t want to give me…and I didn’t want to receive it. But, God. But, God! I am so grateful for my family!
My life isn’t pretty. There is nothing about me that is worthy of envy. I am broken, poor, poured out. Maybe God is using me for the sole purpose of convincing you He can use you in spades. He’s certainly not using me because of anything good in me. But my hands are open, willing. On peaceful, still-water days, I can feel His hands…placing mine on my cross. And His voice whispers gently, as I’m quiet, while I’m broken, “It’s time to get up now. Follow me.”
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I felt like I needed to share these Scriptures with you. John 10:14-16 “I am the good shepherd, and know my sheep, and am known of mine. As the Father knoweth me, even so know I the Father: and I lay down my life for the sheep. And other sheep I have, which are not of this fold: them also I must bring, and they shall hear my voice; and there shall be one fold, and one shepherd.”
I pray for the peace and comfort of our Shepherd to fill you and for His strength and protection to surround you.
From someone old enough to be your mother; you have taught me! Thank you.
That’s very sweet. Thank you.
God knew, from the beginning of time, from the beginning of your journey, that you would be here. I am thankful for the twists and turns of life that have brought us closer as friends, although the circumstances haven’t always been pretty, I am grateful for you and the amazing way God has used you in my life.
I am excited for your new adventure and your book! You may not see it, but there’s TONS of good in you.
I see it, and many others do as well. I know you may not think it is in you, but God has placed it there and you have received it, which is all you need to do. You are such a blessing to me, and I can’t wait for the day I get to hug your neck in person. Someday!
Change is hard, even under the most perfect circumstances. I know that I have been at my wit’s end quite often lately. Being a public school teacher is something I treasure, but it is also emotionally, psychologically, and physically exhausting. I know I “get the summers off” (no one will even let me forget it!!) and I LOVE that about my job. But why do you think we get the summers off? Cuz we would probably end up attacking your poor, sweet child sometime mid-July when they, yet again, showed up without a pencil and acted like it was my fault. Hmmmm….. this post is quite a bit about me, isn’t it? I guess all I mean to say is that I am having struggles right now, too, and I am living off of two very important concepts. The first is “This, too, shall pass.” Trials and tribulations come and go, so I try to focus on the important stuff, like family. My problems will never all be gone, when these troubles pass, more challenges will come knocking at my door, so I should try not to get too sucked in. Second, is that my husband keeps reminding me that really the only thing I have any control over (to my lasting chagrin) is my own attitude. And If I can improve my outlook, I can improve most situations. It sounds like you are focused on the important things, and your spiritual outlook sure helps you keep a positive/constructive attitude, so I think you and yours will be just fine!!